朋友！我很想你！

本来打算我不要些在blog里面
因为你看不到我在写什么！
但是我很想告诉你婷
你永远永远都是我的好姐妹好朋友^^
你的离世让我觉得很惊讶也很突然
我知道你没那么傻将做的
从你离开那一天到现在。。你报梦给我
我抱着你很紧很紧，你告诉我你介绍朋友给我认识你要走了
你要走去哪里？？？？我不要认识什么朋友！！
婷你知道我每一晚上当我睡觉前我有想回我们的回忆嘛？
我们的片段不停的在我脑海里转来转去
你在天堂好嘛？我打算去你家看看你家人妈妈。。
天堂有爸爸和你在一起一定开心吧=)
知道你怕孤独。。你可以随时进到我梦里我能和你聊天
本来想介绍你我新男友给你认识他叫明=)
但是已经没有这个机会了
当我不开心是因为你的离世，他就在一直陪伴我安慰我
他真的一个很好的男人，虽然小我4年但是我不介意
今天我看到你干姐姐哦。。我们聊聊突然提到你
我们的表情突然变了。。
很怀念我们去clubbing的日子
就算现在我去到clubbing都还是觉得没有你的声音觉得静静
开始很少去那些地方了
不写了。。再写的话给人看到我流眼泪就不好><

My love poem to baby~

It's so easy to love someone
when a relationship is just beginning
because both people are always
looking their best, saying their best
acting their best.
But those days have come
and gone for us
and you still love me
You've seen me at my absolute worst
both physically and emotionally
and loved me in spite of it.
You've been supportive
when I've left good
about everything in my life
and even more so
where my self-esteem was low
You're been at my side
when I've left proud and strong
and you're held me close and listened
when I needed to be taken care of.

**The poem it means what my heart say it on you**

Your lover~~darling <3

Muacksss~eternity love =)

.....

today 7.50am+ ald wake up ..wht happen on me @_@
honestly im very very very blur and sleepy nw
jz now drive also nt dare drive fast ><
ytd u was hiding something and today also the same????
or today as u said jz nw u nothing??sorry i cant to dont mind it
im so mind every words u saying..
argggg!!!!!gosh..zzzz
hou lan ngan fan ar mahai zzzzzzzz
last night im crazy jor @_@!!
from cheras driving to rawang =.= return also need 2hours+ ..
sot lan jor 凸 ...
go rawang doing ntg den go 7-11 buy nescafe den back again ..huh?!!
reached home more gg..cant sleep wtf?!!!!!
so lan suffer ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
be nightmare soon =___=
today's weather so cloud wanna rain ler..^^
weather are slowly slowly to changed from cloud become shine..
but we relation are jz like a fluorescent lamp ..
want dark just dark want light just light :(
i wish i was a stupid stubborn person..dont want to knw dont want to hear :(
waliao when only reach 5pm??????????????
i realize today time pass so slow ..aduhai =_=
today drink jor 2 nescafe again....serious speaking im nt much like drink nescafe/kopi !
because im really so sleepy..even nescafe also nt work ><""

working time ler...tata~~~~


*love you*

canot sleep :(

很久没来这里写写东西了
今晚我睡不着哦..做么的??
是不是他态度突然变了??
两个人一起不是应该坦白么?
有什么隐瞒呢??隐瞒算什么关系??
你能告诉我么??
不懂做么你一直很多疑问
如果告诉你我没有男生朋友你都不信吧..
所以我从来没骗过你..我就是有男生朋友
难道交朋友也有错??
今晚你没打电话给我..我就已经知道天气突然变了
变到冷冷..痛痛感觉..
为什么全部要你自己受??难道我不能帮你分担?
在你心里我算什么地位?
就是不喜欢当你有很多疑问关于我而你自己就选择在一个人烦一个人受苦!!
我知道每一句话"我爱你"真的代表不到什么
希望你能感应到我真的爱你
今晚不想睡觉..很想驾车出去走走..
不懂做么鬼我的眼泪流下..
不写了..出去了..我没带电话出去哦^^
宝贝晚安
么么~~

开始失眠= =||

最近不懂做么每次都睡不着..
是不是我习惯迟睡或者我真的失眠呢 =___=|||
这几天我感觉到你很不开心,但是我又不是如此呢 =(
从你的声音我就已经听得出了^^
不知道要写什么....~~
我很想告诉你,我真的不能没有你..我爱你宝贝~
都已经很晚了..看你都睡觉做猪猪了哦 ^.^
我希望我今年的生日愿望可以和我宝贝能出香港两个人漫游2人世界^^
会不会实现的???
我觉得每一次我许的愿都不会实现的..做么的??是不是不够诚意许愿 =(
今年生日你能陪我读过么??
不过我的生日还有很久啦...12/12查九个月将久 =]
很晚了..不想写那么多..眼睛开始很累了 X_x
么么么么么么么么么么么老公~~~!!

晚安了..siam .............

Im sorry~

Recently many unhappy things happened ..
People are so greedy this is truth..well included me as well >,<
I'm still remember my grandma say if a person too greedy finally we wont get back the double things,we just only lost all of them ..
Started from march I realize many unhappy things and many many problem are coming through from me =(
Yesterday 07/03/2010 this date I've tears a lot because i have to release out..
Everyone have their problem,but mine problem are a lots ..yes I know maybe many person are more trouble then me ..or should can say I'm the luck those are not so many trouble on it? @.@
"女人之苦" this words really truth?Or I think I'm not come to this stage yet ^^
People say unhappy will fast pass or fast recover once after the another day..should I can say recover??
Although I looks very adhere to, but my heart is very fragile easy to tear :(
Tomorrow is a deadline confirmation regarding Australia Modeling for Chanel Company's..
So Should I go or stay here :( Earlier I have make decide wont go Australia, but I should think properly again before i decide ^^
I was wailing to you, and went so far away I'm afraid I will miss you everyday T_T
Should I how !!!!! (May hope tomorrow i had a nice decide on it ^_^)
I'm so greedy I wish If i could go there be with u and working there too..but I think impossible
My mum always told me,everything is possible if u think u can..if a person heart thinking he cant so the life no matter in what situation also is impossible ..yea mami this words so useful to me.
Unfortunately , my "boom boom" have to move back Edinburgh, Scotland =(
I wish he could stay with me ever and ever, but he will leave me in a day..
I miss to play with him , I miss he licking my neck playing with me.. T_____T
Will it gt miracle in someone days??I hope It really gt MIRACLE ..do you believe miracle???
Hope my bro will change his mind wont take back him..=(
MIRACLE `````MIRACLE `````MIRACLE```` :P
OMGGGGGGGGG~~
Awww~~It's seem too late now @.@!!!!
I should shut down my light my mini lappy and be a fat pig yea..TEEHEE`````


***N|t3z Mmuacksss***

早上就喉咙痛很辛苦哦 T______________________T


我不要生病啦...救命!!


今天下午4点我要去studio哦..到时候又看见老朋友了..^ ^


不想约欣出来,只想静静自己一个人... 而且今天的天气很好噢..好像要下雨了 @@"


不过也是好啊..没那么热...嘻嘻~~


我老公去冲凉然后又工作了..而我在家吃蛇...啦啦啦啦~~


好饿哦>_< 在等待工人煮早餐给我..可是等到要死了啦 =_=||


嗨~今天没工作我应该睡迟点才起来的..可是我发噩梦>_<


现在第二次了..我最近怎么啦...做么两晚都发这些梦的=(


过在的12月23号我朋友去世了..本来不想说出来的..但是可能满在心理很辛苦吧 虽然过去不应该想..但是如果我不说可怕又第三次噩梦 =(


过在的10月他告诉我们这些老友说他有病可是听医生说会好... 那我们也很担心他,到底是什么病呢??


他的家人也不想多说他有什么病,所以我们就没有问她的家人了..


过了两个礼拜我们朋友们探望他在医院...想不到他比以前瘦很多很多..我们都认不到是他...


一直说他没事的很快就出来和我们一起废过..听到他没事当然高兴啦..


一天又一天这样过我们各有各的忙所以都很少看他了..打算今年新年去他的家赌钱..


到了12月23号7点多晚上突然他的姐姐告诉另外一个朋友也算是我们的朋友吧.. 他打给我说他去世了..我不信!我就打电话给他的妈妈问个清楚.. 没想到其实是真的..眼泪就不停的流..


觉得遗憾因为打算他好了出院我们出来吃大餐..没想到..就这样走了..连一个交待都没有!算什么啊.. 好了当她走了我们才知道她原来有blood cancer..这个病怎样来的呢??!


他的家人就说他一年前都有这个病了,但是那时候没那么严重所以只吃药..其实这种病没得救的..=( 做么他会有这个病??就是因为他抽很多烟..一天起码2-3包烟...也怪不得他..他工作压力吧..


人生就是将..吃多少穿多少就是注定的..不到我们选择要不要走..


我一生人里面流最多眼泪只有两个 - 我的表弟还有我的朋友 -


宝贝对不起,我心情不是很好..当你看到我这个blog很想你哄哄我 =(
我爱你么么!~~